I noticed a salt barn and approached it taking pictures. But as the real object came into view clearly, that was not the same as I expected. What I believed a salt barn was a bird observation deck. I print photos and build up them through piling up a copy by copy orderly. From the camera table, a camera keep an eye forward the photos out of focus. As time passes, photos come closer to the camera's lens as thick as they pile up. Ultimately about 500 photos, congealing memories as if they metaphorize the trajectory of consciousness, turn back on such a subjectivation, ambiguity. The stack of photos proves that it is not a salt barn what I tried to remember, and becomes a mean by which the incompleteness and ambiguity are revealed.

I happened to take a picture after encountering a storage in Suncheon Bay. I thought it a salt barn and approached it, but it was a very different one from my expectation. Perhaps, does memory have such a quality? Man wants to see what his shades of memory create. I bethought myself a sort of trajectorization in order to describe a process of consciousness. The process of the work is to make it conceivable as a thought process what the relation between I chasing memories and another I observing it means. It is described that on the axis of time the flow of film forms an ambivalent structure of consciousness and then it gets to have a trajectory, consequently revealing such an antinomic structure. That is, the gap between the filming action to confirm the realization of substance and its picture shot in the scene show that the memory cannot be identified with its object in the subject. And the time made into photos (material space), through piling up photos, forms material thickness of substantial world and at the same time makes a double structure as a visual unit in the filmic space. We have all idiosyncratic precious objects in our memory. But it could be not the same with what we remember. Memory is like ungraspable mist. Our own memories always hover us and readily make relationship with the subject of memory. Yet, if we once try to identify their substances, examining or recollecting them clearly, they would disperse and disappear.

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